pfffft

*feels like shit and dies*

Always Attract - You Me At Six

Rawr!!!!

Yay, I'm bored again, :( I'm not actually that excited.. A little sexually excited, but generally excited? No.

Actual soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo depressed! Have to find a place to move out to... I have like a maximum of $103 a week at the moment, sure there are some places that only ask for $100 a week, but $3 for a week of food? I don't think so! I've been out applying for jobs, trying to find some ways for a little bit of quick cash, it's not really happening fast. I only have around $700 saved up, and $500 of that I havn't got because a certain bitch mother of mine won't pay it back to me. Stressful!

Learning to live life is hard, I wish it wasn't this hard. *Random douchebag* "That's what she said!"... Jerk.

Take Off Your Colours - You Me At Six.

I Forgot :(

Dear diary... I mean, Hey!

Remember that time I totally forgot I had a blog? 'Cause I do!!! I've been hitting the gym, going to the cinema, and listening to amazing music... Ah, life. Laughing, crying, sighing, smiling... all of that, it's all happening for me!

Totally love me!

Between You And I - Every Avenue

badadadabadadada

Lewis is bottling everything up inside :)

Flight Of Icarus - Iron Maiden

So Tired!

*Falls Asleep*

Right Girl - The Maine

Ahhh, Life.

Well hi. My name is Lewis and I have just been on holidays again.

For the last five days I went over to Melbourne to visit my dad and his family, I say his family because they're not mine too. So anyway, he lives with his partner and her three children. They're pretty cool and what not but it always does feel a little fucking awkward that he has this other family that I'm not a part of.

Ah, I got to go on a plane, that's always fun right? Whoosh!

Ok, so anyway, this weekend I'm gonna be housesitting with a friend at his sisters place while she goes away so that should be cool, Love you! Bye.

Oh man! Instead of a song, I think you should all go watch That Thing You Do, it was a great film!

Family.!

Rawr! Hello beautiful people. I'm with my family as of half way through today.

This morning I went to the airport to go to Melbourne so I can spend some time with the awesome side of my family. I have my dad, a step brother, two step sisters and a step mum here, they are the absolute shit.

So anyway, I'm here for 5 days to just chill and relax with the family, hopefully we can think of some cool shit to do.

Nightnight children! Lovelovelove. xo

Whispers - All That Remains.

WowHi

Heya, so I'm bloggin on my phone 'cause U'm too lazy to boot up the laptop, so I'm gonna keep it short and sweet.

The first thing that comes to mind is banana milkshakes, they're amazing and I have one everyday for brekkie. No sugar or anything though, 'cause that would be bad for me and that could make me sad.

Rawr! I've been feeling great lately, on top of the world and all that jazz. Got a few My Chemical Romance albums to keep me happy with my music, it's great to listen to old stuff I havn't heard for a while. :)

I really have to sleep now so that I don't stay up too late and sleep in all of tomorrow. Got another little 5 day holiday coming up soon which should be fun and interesting.

Helena - My Chemical Romance, great stuff, great music vid to go with the song too, check it out!

Night Drive.!

Rawr! Hey.

Tonight I was going to see a movie, but no, no good movies that I hadn't already seen. My friend and I, befuddled at having nothing to do, thought it a good idea to visit our other friend at his work. Fast food joints, nice little places, it wasn't a busy night so my mate was particularly chatty while he worked which was cool since I don't get to see school friends much anymore.

I would love to have something useful to say to you all, but I'm not that insightful guy with lessons to teach and what not. Sorry! I can help you with other things though... like... Rawr! Scared you.

Who knows where the nice 16 year old girls can be found? The smart, intelligent and funny girls. Nowhere, thats where. Well, I'm sure they're all somewhere but in Adelaide, no. :) Nahh, I have to say I don't actually believe there aren't any here, I'm sure they're somewhere, the search is on!

NightNightNight, KissKiss.

Paper Airplanes (Makeshift Wings) - AFI

Three, Two, One, Powerdown.

HeyHey,

I totally went and saw Inception today! It was shit. No, just kidding, kind of. It was pretty interesting but I had other things on my mind, like rolling up my sleeves and playing with my shoes. I could not pay attention in that movie for the life of me. Okay, seriously I think that everyone should go see it, I'm not going to say it was the most amazing movie ever but it was thought provoking and interesting.

I'm really feeling that need for a good ol' cuddle right now. :) Any takers? Anyway, I was thinking tonight that I should really be thinking about what I'm going to do with myself, in terms of school and all of that stuff. I wish I wasn't having so much fun doing nothing, because I really don't want all this to stop, if my life was to be this way forever, I would be happy. That's really unrealistic though, unfortunately.

I am still painting flowers for you. (L)

Night night.

Monument - A Day To Remember.

D to the i c k, I mean Willie....

Daniel-fucking-Willie, best man on earth.

Ok, so if you ever need anything done, anything at all, he's your man. I've seen him do amazing things, from eating twice his body weight in food, to stopping a train with his bear (yes, bear, not bare.) hands. I know you will all have a little trouble accepting this but, he even punched out Chuck Norris. He is so perfect it's even rumoured that he is Jesus himself, he also wrote The Holy Bible, and various other religious texts. Despite being such a huge deal, he's very modest about it all.

Alright, enough of that, I don't really have much to say to everyone but I do hope you're all happy. :) Smiling is always fun, and it makes others happy, so do it more often.

Rawr, nightnight.

Check out some Tokio Hotel songs, it really isn't a band that everyone could get into, but some people should surely like it.

In Color.

Hey all, it's me here :)

Well today was pretty cool, I was sore all over my arms. :( But whatever, thats not too much of a problem. I just relaxed and watched a few movies, nothing even worth a mention though. I played Halo 3 with a couple mates towards the end of the night which passed a little time, fair raped that. My friend has been totally ignoring me lately too, I havn't heard from her in around two weeks, but I guess thats all her issue.

I was thinking, which I do a whole lot of, I was thinking about black and white. Do you know how boring black and white is? I swear, it drives me insane, not being able to see colors and shades. So then I went on to think about how awful it might be to be blind. Well, that's actually kind of where I started thinking even more. If you were blind from birth, would you even hate that you can't see color? What would the words red, blue, green, yellow even mean to you? Confusion I guess?

Well that all made me feel pretty happy I guess, the only problem I have with my eyes is that I'm short sighted. Well, my point is that some things that just pass through your mind that you don't think about, like color, even black and white, are really amazing things.

Goodbye I guess, Love you all.

Not Now - Blink 182.

Well... Hey, I Don't Know A Good Title.

Hey, today was pretty cool guys. Ok, first off I watched a couple movies, The Last Song and The Imaginarium Of Doctor Parnassus. Both pretty cool, The Last Song was suprisingly good, a little sad at times though, enough to draw out a tear or two. More importantly, today I joined a gym with a friend, which I think is probably the best move I've personally made in a while.

There really hasn't been much going on in my life that is really major enough to need a mention. I've been happy just doing whatever there is to do, appointments, music, friends. It's all been pretty good but not nearly productive, which if I leave it too long is really going to become a problem.

So this gym thing, I've been thinking about how it will be really good for me, but not only for physical fitness reasons but also it will give me a bit of routine. Having that thing you do on certain days that just fills in that little bit of time so you don't find yourself doing nothing on those uneventful days.

Finding that balance between things you have to do as routine and keeping free time for friends, family, school, work and all of those things is starting to seem really important to me. Nobody wants to have too much time on their hands, that can get extremely boring but on the other hand. Nobody wants to have to keep blowing off their friends and family because they have too many places to be.

For everyone who doesn't have this type of thing, which most adults would I imagine. So just for the kids I guess, think about finding that thing you do, may it be sports, youth groups, or even work.

Bye for now everyone.

A Hole In The World - Thursday, it sounds really nice. :)

Christmas In July!

Alrighty. So here's a good one.

Today I went to a lunch with my friend, it was some 'christmas in July' event going on. So I thought it couldn't hurt to go, it's a free lunch, I'll meet some people, kill some time. Everyone there was amazing, nice, funny, great to be around. It just hit me really hard when I was thinking, I don't have that much fun with my friends, my friends don't feel as close to me as a bunch of people I hardly know.

Direction is one of the most important things in life, knowing where you are and where you're going. Where are you going, maybe more importantly, who are you going with? Do you love these people, are they the people you want to make memories with?

You have to know who you want to be with, having the right people in your life will make a massive difference, an unbelievable difference maybe. You have to know that you're friends are strong people, smart people, respectable people. A great friend is someone who knows what they value, if you have friends that don't then who's to say one day when they make their mind up that you'll be one of the things they value?

Right now, I don't know where my life is going, I'm 16 years old and have time. For now, I want to find the people that I'd like to bring with me wherever I go, people that can help me get there, encourage me to get there. Have you surrounded yourself with these people?

Take care, take time to think.

Black And White - The Maine, that's an album not a song... I can't stress enough how amazing it is.

Purrrr-fect.

Rawr, everyone knows what they think is the 'perfect' girl. Or guy??? Well anyway, I'm pretty sure I know exactly what I'd love, She is...

Smart, almost geekish, but not quite. She should be able to tell me she loves me with a simple look. I want someone I can talk to, and the other way around too. She has to be able to talk to me and she needs to be comfortable in knowing that anything she tells me stays with me, I'd never tell a secret that isn't mine. Funny, a great sense of humour is a really big thing, I think this is one thing that everyone appreciates, someone with a similar sense of humour, being able to make me laugh, smile and have fun is really important. She tells me if there's a problem, everyone knows that one girl who instead of being straight forward with you is just bitchy, to act as some sort of hint? That is one of the worst things I can think of, tell me what the problem is, that way we can work through it.

Brunette, I personally love long brown hair, slightly curly but not too much, wavy? Fringes are nice, they have to be parted though. Side parts, cool... middle parts, not so cool. Eyes are a really big deal, blue... I love really light blue eyes, they amaze me. Totally not to be racist or anything but I really only find white people attractive. Kind of short, not too short though... short is cute. She's sexy not slutty, which there is a pretty small difference between, but a difference that matters. Smiling with teeth is always pretty awesome, and it's the kind of thing that makes me happy to see. I love a smile that can just light up the room.

Loves music, similar taste to mine would be amazing. Also having some of her own favourites that I don't like too much, being the same would be like dating myself and that can only be so exciting. She can enjoy silence, just being with her is enough to make her happy, not to sound like I think I'm all that and more but I'd love just being with eachother, sitting with eachother, being enough to make us both happy for a while. Awesome hugs, you know? Holding eachother really really tight, not for like 2 seconds, but for minutes at a time.

She's everything I could ask for, probably everything I won't end up with... but I can hope a little right? She's the girl I love, and always will, wherever she is and whoever she is. I think she's amazing, perfect, beautiful inside and out. I'd do anything for her, I am in love with her.

That's all I guess, goodnight and I hope there are some people out there who have their special someone.

You Can Breathe - Jack's Mannequin.

Direction.

Hey, It's me!

Today is gonna be the day that they're gonna thro------ wait, that's not my writing, unfortunately for you. Well anyway, I did nothing today, well, I made plans for sunday but that isn't exactly getting me anywhere for today. There was some intense xboxing, and I watched 10 Things I Hate About You but thats all.

So I've been feeling pretty great lately, probably due to the fact that I'm totally awesome and lost like 5kg on holidays, which I think is a fair effort for two weeks. My hair cut I'm also really happy with right now, considering keeping it this length permanantly. I really wish I had something to write about now, but there's been no drama at all, just happiness.

Music! So this is all I have to talk about. Lately I've been really into a few bands, which are...

Boys Like Girls
Mayday Parade
The Maine
The Starting Line
A Day To Remember

So yeah, they're all really awesome.That isn't in order of who I like the most or anything like that, they're all amazing and you guys out there should check them out and get into them if you aren't already.

Goodbye for now, take care world.

All I Want - Emery, check it out!!!

The Mall.

Hello everyone.

Today I was pretty fucked, I hadn't had any sleep at all and had to set off for a semi-busy day. Terrible already, but so much fun. Some parts of the day I was falling asleep, some I was wide awake. First off I went to some soccer pitches to kick a ball around with my brother and some of his friends... Fun? A little. Secondly I had an appointment to go to... Uneventful. Thirdly I went to some music stores looking for some CDs but of course nobody had what I was looking for.

So this morning was like really really good, I had a shower and for some reason felt really really awesome, like perfection. Not to be up myself or anything but, I was pretty much Jesus. Maybe it was just me being overtired, but something is telling me I was amazing this morning.

So I don't really feel like writing much today cause I'm dying to get to bed so byebye take care.

Inside Of You - The Maine, everyone should look it up, it's their single for the new album.

Totally Here.

Heya, so...

I'm totally not gonna skip writing these blogs for a while... damn holidays screwed up my blog writing, but they're over now... which is a little upsetting. OK! I'm very happy, holidays were just the thing I needed, the world is really a beautiful place and I didn't really get that by staying home all the time. But now I understand, and I don't have to go out to look at it again any time soon ;)

♫ Ho ho hopefully this holiday will make us believe that we're exactly where we're supposed to be. ♫

Life is great right now, but I probably change my opinion on life on an hourly basis... I think I want to do something along the lines of music for my future. I keep thinking about where my life is going and I can't be happy unless I see it going there. Well anyway rawr.

Strange voice: Who wants a girlfriend?
               Me: Oh, me... pick me!!
If only it was that easy? Well I'm sure for some people it is, but for me... not quite. That all seemed very pointless to say, but it sure means a whole lot to me :) Everyone needs somebody to love.

Byebye? For now anyway... Until tomorrow.

Taking Apart A Gigantic Machine - The Main Drag, is amazing.

Spring Time

Hey all.

Very relaxing day today, got some new music, chilled by the hot springs and went for rainforest walks. I was very entertained by everything.

I had a very angry mood for a little of the day but then I just had a good sleep and got over it. Talking to my amazing new friends here on the trip has been really special and I'm going to really miss all of them when the trip is over.

I'm really looking for something special at the moment, which is very hard. I'm not sure what I want, it could be people, one person, material things, something to love and get into. Someone to love and get into ;) haha just a little joke...

Goodbye people. I hope you're all loving something that's loving you.

Two Is Better Than One - Boys Like Girls with Talor Swift. It's kinda representative of my mood.

Awkward turtle.

Hey, first off... I am very annoyed that I've skipped days. I also think I'm semi-justified though. Between bus breakdowns, no cell reception and swimming in hot springs, I havn't had a great deal of time to write this blog on my cell.

I had some fun up in Darwin, it's a great place and to top it all off there's currently some 'miss something something swimsuit australia' competition going on, needless to say there are hot girls around every corner.

I feel like I've really gotten to know all of my group and I love all of them. Tomorrow starts the trip back down south, which ends on saturday. So sorry for skipping posts and all of that, it's harder than I thought.

Ok, so I have Whoever She Is - The Maine really stuck inside my head at the moment.. It's amazing.

Goodbye for today :) haha.. Some guy just asked me for a lighter...

Thunder - Boys Like Girls, check it.

Canyon...

Bonjourno... I'm half Italian so that was totally ok to say... Not sure that I spelt it right though.

Moving on.

Today was sort of freaking awesome, I went to Kings Canyon. It's this hugely awesome walk which is kinda hard at the start because its like a vertical 500m climb. When we got to the top it was a really amazing view, and it was just awesome to be out in the sun looking at some really awesome scenery.

On the bus we all watched The Lion King which was pretty cool, I hadn't seen it since I was a little kid so I didn't really remember it. They were all singing and stuff, it was all very exciting.

On the bus I also talked to this girl I'm travelling with, her name is Gabby and she's 22. Got to know her a little which was nice, she has this laugh that really reminds me of someone who used to be my friend, so that's really good to hear. We listened to some music, she has a weird taste in music but it was all very kinda cool and quirky.

I'm in Alice Springs at the moment just for the night, then we have over 1000kms to travel tomorrow, so hopefully some interesting stuff happens on the bus. Goodbye for today.

The Taste Of Ink - The Used, I used to really love that song a few years back, I hope some people enjoy it.

Nidificate

Hey all.

Today was amazing, I went back to Uluru and walked around it, which is a little over 10km. It was a really great walk with some really great people, the weather was amazing and there was a great breeze.

Before Uluru, our group went to The Olgas which is just another bunch of rocks. Don't get me wrong though, these are some amazing rocks, they're like towers and the colors change durung the day, it's amazing.

I got to know a few more people in the group a little better today, which was nice, they're really a great group of individuals to be with.

One thing that is kind of ruining this whole trip for me is that I can't stop thinking about my friend who is leaving to America. It's really upsetting because I love her very very much and things havn't gone so well with her lately. I need to think of a way to fix it.

Ok, so I hope everyone is keeping well out there in the world, goodbye.

I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing - Aerosmith... Totally had people singing this on the bus today.

Card games and Uluru

So heyhey.

This morning we all got up at 7am and packed, ready to leave to Uluru. For those who don't know' Uluru is in essence is a massive rock in the middle of nowhere. In my opinion it was a pretty damn impressive rock, very big...

On the bus ride up we watched Shrek and played card games. I was really loving the card games for a while, but then I lost when we switched to Uno. Extremely sad-face.

We're at a pretty awesome camp-site, the rooms have heating and a pretty good kitchen. The showers are awesome and I'm getting awesome network coverage, which I need for these posts.

Right now I'm hanging with a couple guys playing table soccer, so I better get back to all that.

Alright so, take care everyone. :)

Under Pressure - Queen, it was like the only song I've heard today and also it has alot of good covers so if you don't like the original, look them up.

Starting the Top End Tour.

Well it was a pretty good day' a whole lot of travelling though. I went like 300km on a bus with some pretty cool people that I'll be spending the next couple weeks with...

On the bus we played some cards, watched a couple movies and had some good chats. I'm really loving that I don't have to be at home with my family, it's a good change.

We stopped off for KFC at lunch time and there was some epic classic rock playing inside, which is really the only music I'll get to hear for a whike which kinda sucks.

So ah goodbye and I'll probs have something cool to talk about tomorrow...

Just For Tonight - One Night Only, It's some british alt music, pretty cool.

Going For a Drive...

Ok, so hey.

So this morning I got picked up from my mates house, and went staright home.

Today was actual pretty sweet, I hung out with my cousin pretty much all day. We were going to go to this place in the country, but we kind of got lost and just ended up driving for a few hours listening to music. The music was pretty awesome though, we listened to some Alice In Chains, KoRn, Slayer, and a pretty cool 'Greatest Hits' CD...

It was hell good just to kind of fuck off for a day to the hills, relaxing and stuff. But yeah, it definately made me think that Adelaide is a much better place than it seems. But yeah, it was a pretty great day, good to just chill before I go off for my holidays for two weeks tomrrow morning. I'm hell psyched for this holiday, I packed and shaved and all of that just now.

I'll be blogging from my phone while I'm away, the bad thing is that I won't be able to listen to music while I'm gone. :( So I'll just post some songs I like from memory down the bottom of the posts.

Take care everyone.

Eleven - Taking Back Sunday

Taking a Day Off

Well hello,

I've been spending today at my friends house, which is pretty cool and yes it is a bit anti-social of me to start blogging while I'm out but I've just started a day to day blog and didn't want to start skipping days already. :)

So anyway, it's been pretty fun although I havn't listened to a single piece of music today :(. My friend and I are just catching up and what not before I leave for my holiday on Monday, so it's been pretty chill. We've just been playing games and chatting about stuff.

I'll definately have something more interesting tomorrow so yeah, uber boring day but I guess that can be expected on'a day to day blog. Sorry, bye.

Since I havn't listened to music today I think I'll just say a random song that I really like, Jumper - Third Eye Blind

Jacob (L)

Hey. :)

Actual had a pretty good day, which is totally fucking awesome. I went and saw Eclipse, it was like a really really great movie, I've been looking forward to seeing it for ages. Jacob was so hot.. I think I have a man crush, but it's totally not gay because everyone knows he's amazing. So yeah, exciting and what not.

Being into someone that's with someone, totally a situation that I understand, which is why I like the character Jacob so much. Totally a feeling that kills you. Actually, I found some lyrics I like the other day so here they are. The song is, Heart Heart Heartbreak - Boys Like Girls


We're heading for a heart, heart, heartbreak
And I don't ever, ever wanna hear you say
Don't say you love me, don't even
Don't say you love me your leaving

Headed for a heart, heart, heartbreak
I'm gonna, gonna, turn around and walk away
Don't say you love me, don't even
Don't say you love me your leaving.


Which is a little bit of an angry-sad feeling when people are leaving your life, you can feel kind of betrayed and cheated. But ah, the last song in the album (Go - Boys Like Girls) kind of goes on to say...


Get up and go,
Take a chance and be strong
Or you could spend your whole life falling on

Don’t look back just go,
Take a breath and move along
You could spend your whole life holding on
You could spend your whole life holding on

 
Which is a song that really comes to the acceptance that people have lives and sometimes you're only a little part of their bigger picture, even if you want to be the big part of it. But I don't think I'll fully understand how to accept something before it's gone, you've gotta fight until you lose.

But whatever, that's all a little bit heavy, and I can't see it making many people smile. So ah, my hair looked pretty awesome today, not that anyone besides me would care... umm I also got a hug from someone claiming to be in a hugging competition trying to get as many hugs as they could, that was pretty cool I guess.

Goodbye :)

A song I kinda have started to like lately is The Poison - The All-American Rejects, it's from the album Almost Alice, which is worth checking out.

Fail.

Heya...

So, starting off today, I was pretty excited. I had plans to see my friend which was cool, I thought it'd be nice with everything going on between us to just be able to talk about things and sort it all out. Turns out her solution was that after she leaves to America in a couple months we should just stop talking... It was so painful to hear it actually made me a little bit sick, I had to leave as soon as she suggested that... Horrible.

So, naturally, I'm still feeling like total shit after that today. We have a whole lot of history I guess and we've been best friends for just about a year and a half now. No point complaining about all of that I guess, I just can't believe how cool with it she was... Totally cut.

I was supposed to visit my grandma tonight with my brother because she's going into hospital soon and a whole lot of complicated stuff, but my brother didn't want to go so I'm a little annoyed about that. Ahhs, I'm going to go see Eclipse tomorrow night, which should be pretty great, I havn't read the books but I did enjoy the other two movies. :)

I didn't practice any music today which I'm pretty devistated about. :( But, I did get some new clothes which is pretty cool, I got; grey trackies, plain black t-shirt, and a plain black long sleeve shirt... so I'm kinda happy about that.

But yeah, I kind of really hope not too many people out there got the feeling of being "fucked over" today. It's absolutely horrible feeling that because of a close friend. I do realise that worse things could happen, but I'm a strong believer in just being sad about these sorts of things for a little while. Shaking things off just leaves them undealt with, which I think can be a bad thing. So I hope everyone is keeping as happy as they can, and I guess a little peice of advice is just to keep your good friends as close as you can... They're really amazing when you need them.

I really wish I was better than I am and that I could make people love me a little more. Being underappreciated can feel pretty bad for anyone, I wish I was a little more perfect. It would be great to be able to make everyone that I love, really happy, but I don't think I'm enough for them. One day maybe...

Ready - The Starting Line. A little bit of a 'recovery' song for me, with a pretty good uplift at the end.

Happyface.

O.K. so, to make a short story about an uneventful day really long...

I woke up at about 3pm because I was sick in bed all morning, which is kind of annoying becasue I won't be able to sleep easily tonight. :(. Ahhhs, my brother finished his school term today, which is great for him but it's a little annoying for me because I do enjoy the time I have at home when nobody else is around.

Tomorrow! Well... I'm a little bit happy about tomorrow, I'm going to get to catch up with a friend which is pretty cool. She's ahhh pretty sweet, super cool and ah... caliente. But, she's leaving in a few months. Sadface. Have to make the most of the time she's still here. Also I'm seeing some family tomorrow night, so I'll write about all those things tomorrow.

Well, I really have just about nothing to say. The hours just got away from me today and I wasted all my time doing nothing that I can even remember.

:)

Bruised - Jack's Mannequin, it's a really great song.

Boys Like Girls... Alot...

It's been a good day, learned a new song, got out of the house, got a new shirt. All smiles.

But now that the day is over and I've come to tomorrow, I don't know what it's all adding up to, I'm not quite sure where it's going, and sometimes that makes it a little hard to keep on smiling. I got the 'Love Drunk' album by Boys Like Girls today, it's got a bunch of great stuff on it, songs about love, loss and rising above everything that brings you down... Definately worth checking out if you haven't.

He who knows not, and knows not that he knows not, is a fool. Shun him.
He who knows not, and knows he knows not, is a child. Teach him.
He who knows, and knows not that he knows, is asleep. Wake him.
He who knows, and knows that he knows, is a leader. Follow him.

I'm not sure what I'm quoting because I was given that and wasn't told where it was from. Still it remains meaningful and I think it's important for everyone to take a look at something like that and work out exactly where they are and what potential they hold. A child never becomes a leader without being lead.

So moving along, the song I learned how to play today was ahh, Whoever She Is - The Maine, it's a really great song, easy to play, and I enjoy it alot. But yeah, I'm just thinking, where's the line you stop at when you're trying so hard to get something you know you want, but you know you may never get? I get stuck on things really easily, and I end up going in a totally unknown direction that I have no control over, but I can't seem to just let go.

I think it's probably a good time for me to give up thinking for the night and go to sleep...

Go - Boys Like Girls, I found it to be a pretty amazing song.

Boring Day...

So a little more about me I guess.

I live with my mother and brother, I'm not particularly close to them though. I'm 6ft tall and weigh 90kg, so I'm definately not particularly happy with the way I look, but I guess I'm don't dislike it enough to want to change it. I blame them for just about everything I'm unhappy about, and I honestly think half of it is their fault but whatever. I take things out on people closest to me which has left me with a pretty small amount of really close friends.

Today...

I woke up pretty late in the afternoon and made some plans with a friend, which happens to be particularly complicated because we've been fighting I guess you could say? I don't know why I let things get so bad with people I love, but eh... I can work it out when I see her in a couple of days, I hope. Also today, my cousin asked me to hang out with her for a day in the hills, simple but excellent... she has a good taste in outings I guess?

Ahhhh, I'm trying to learn this song You Had Me At Hello - A Day To Remember, which is my friends favourite song by them, turns out that it's actually a pretty good song.

My dad... kinda being a douche, he's going on this trip to California for 3 weeks, 1 week of work and 2 weeks of holidays, am I worth taking? No. I havn't actually spent any one on one time with him for about 2 years which is kind of sad, he was always my favourite parent. So yeah, I've been getting a little down about that lately, but things dont always go the way we want in life, I'll just learn to live with it even if it takes some time.

I know how uninteresting I may seem, but I'm sure soon enough somethings going to happen... probably a bad thing, hopefully something good though. :)

I hope everyone out there is having good times and keeping happy, and for those who aren't... there's always going to be at least one person who loves you and who cares, don't let that person go, whoever it is.

Bedtime.

A song I've been really really liking lately is...
Remembering Sunday - All Time Low

Hey?

Wells, I'm pretty normal and things, I'm 16, dropped out of year 11 and looking for work. I like really simple things like; Listening to music, good conversation, being with friends, and listening to music. I don't have many things and don't have much money, but I'm totally fine with that. There are a whole lot of other things that I'm not fine with though... but that will all come out when it does I guess.

I spend my days texting friends, listening to music, learning to play music, and playing games... it really isn't much but at least it's something. I have a relatively good time just doing all that but I do have some routine things I do on some days of the week.

I started today off in a little bit of a weird way... getting some Canadian girl to strip on webcam for me, yes, I do realise that kind of makes me sound like a loser but I guess I'm a bit like that. It helped me get my mind off of things that have been happening around me lately I guess. My day after then went pretty normally though, I had a nice family gathering because there were a couple birthdays happening, so that was all pretty good.

This was really one of my better days, if they all went this way then I think it's very safe to say that I wouldn't be where I am in life. I'll complain on a bad day I guess. Bye.

Oh and just a good song for my average mood today.
Whoever She Is - The Maine