Hey. :)
Actual had a pretty good day, which is totally fucking awesome. I went and saw Eclipse, it was like a really really great movie, I've been looking forward to seeing it for ages. Jacob was so hot.. I think I have a man crush, but it's totally not gay because everyone knows he's amazing. So yeah, exciting and what not.
Being into someone that's with someone, totally a situation that I understand, which is why I like the character Jacob so much. Totally a feeling that kills you. Actually, I found some lyrics I like the other day so here they are. The song is, Heart Heart Heartbreak - Boys Like Girls
We're heading for a heart, heart, heartbreak
And I don't ever, ever wanna hear you say
Don't say you love me, don't even
Don't say you love me your leaving
Headed for a heart, heart, heartbreak
I'm gonna, gonna, turn around and walk away
Don't say you love me, don't even
Don't say you love me your leaving.
Which is a little bit of an angry-sad feeling when people are leaving your life, you can feel kind of betrayed and cheated. But ah, the last song in the album (Go - Boys Like Girls) kind of goes on to say...
Get up and go,
Take a chance and be strong
Or you could spend your whole life falling on
Don’t look back just go,
Take a breath and move along
You could spend your whole life holding on
You could spend your whole life holding on
Which is a song that really comes to the acceptance that people have lives and sometimes you're only a little part of their bigger picture, even if you want to be the big part of it. But I don't think I'll fully understand how to accept something before it's gone, you've gotta fight until you lose.
But whatever, that's all a little bit heavy, and I can't see it making many people smile. So ah, my hair looked pretty awesome today, not that anyone besides me would care... umm I also got a hug from someone claiming to be in a hugging competition trying to get as many hugs as they could, that was pretty cool I guess.
Goodbye :)
A song I kinda have started to like lately is The Poison - The All-American Rejects, it's from the album Almost Alice, which is worth checking out.
Friday, July 2, 2010
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Fail.
Heya...
So, starting off today, I was pretty excited. I had plans to see my friend which was cool, I thought it'd be nice with everything going on between us to just be able to talk about things and sort it all out. Turns out her solution was that after she leaves to America in a couple months we should just stop talking... It was so painful to hear it actually made me a little bit sick, I had to leave as soon as she suggested that... Horrible.
So, naturally, I'm still feeling like total shit after that today. We have a whole lot of history I guess and we've been best friends for just about a year and a half now. No point complaining about all of that I guess, I just can't believe how cool with it she was... Totally cut.
I was supposed to visit my grandma tonight with my brother because she's going into hospital soon and a whole lot of complicated stuff, but my brother didn't want to go so I'm a little annoyed about that. Ahhs, I'm going to go see Eclipse tomorrow night, which should be pretty great, I havn't read the books but I did enjoy the other two movies. :)
I didn't practice any music today which I'm pretty devistated about. :( But, I did get some new clothes which is pretty cool, I got; grey trackies, plain black t-shirt, and a plain black long sleeve shirt... so I'm kinda happy about that.
But yeah, I kind of really hope not too many people out there got the feeling of being "fucked over" today. It's absolutely horrible feeling that because of a close friend. I do realise that worse things could happen, but I'm a strong believer in just being sad about these sorts of things for a little while. Shaking things off just leaves them undealt with, which I think can be a bad thing. So I hope everyone is keeping as happy as they can, and I guess a little peice of advice is just to keep your good friends as close as you can... They're really amazing when you need them.
I really wish I was better than I am and that I could make people love me a little more. Being underappreciated can feel pretty bad for anyone, I wish I was a little more perfect. It would be great to be able to make everyone that I love, really happy, but I don't think I'm enough for them. One day maybe...
Ready - The Starting Line. A little bit of a 'recovery' song for me, with a pretty good uplift at the end.
So, starting off today, I was pretty excited. I had plans to see my friend which was cool, I thought it'd be nice with everything going on between us to just be able to talk about things and sort it all out. Turns out her solution was that after she leaves to America in a couple months we should just stop talking... It was so painful to hear it actually made me a little bit sick, I had to leave as soon as she suggested that... Horrible.
So, naturally, I'm still feeling like total shit after that today. We have a whole lot of history I guess and we've been best friends for just about a year and a half now. No point complaining about all of that I guess, I just can't believe how cool with it she was... Totally cut.
I was supposed to visit my grandma tonight with my brother because she's going into hospital soon and a whole lot of complicated stuff, but my brother didn't want to go so I'm a little annoyed about that. Ahhs, I'm going to go see Eclipse tomorrow night, which should be pretty great, I havn't read the books but I did enjoy the other two movies. :)
I didn't practice any music today which I'm pretty devistated about. :( But, I did get some new clothes which is pretty cool, I got; grey trackies, plain black t-shirt, and a plain black long sleeve shirt... so I'm kinda happy about that.
But yeah, I kind of really hope not too many people out there got the feeling of being "fucked over" today. It's absolutely horrible feeling that because of a close friend. I do realise that worse things could happen, but I'm a strong believer in just being sad about these sorts of things for a little while. Shaking things off just leaves them undealt with, which I think can be a bad thing. So I hope everyone is keeping as happy as they can, and I guess a little peice of advice is just to keep your good friends as close as you can... They're really amazing when you need them.
I really wish I was better than I am and that I could make people love me a little more. Being underappreciated can feel pretty bad for anyone, I wish I was a little more perfect. It would be great to be able to make everyone that I love, really happy, but I don't think I'm enough for them. One day maybe...
Ready - The Starting Line. A little bit of a 'recovery' song for me, with a pretty good uplift at the end.
Happyface.
O.K. so, to make a short story about an uneventful day really long...
I woke up at about 3pm because I was sick in bed all morning, which is kind of annoying becasue I won't be able to sleep easily tonight. :(. Ahhhs, my brother finished his school term today, which is great for him but it's a little annoying for me because I do enjoy the time I have at home when nobody else is around.
Tomorrow! Well... I'm a little bit happy about tomorrow, I'm going to get to catch up with a friend which is pretty cool. She's ahhh pretty sweet, super cool and ah... caliente. But, she's leaving in a few months. Sadface. Have to make the most of the time she's still here. Also I'm seeing some family tomorrow night, so I'll write about all those things tomorrow.
Well, I really have just about nothing to say. The hours just got away from me today and I wasted all my time doing nothing that I can even remember.
:)
Bruised - Jack's Mannequin, it's a really great song.
I woke up at about 3pm because I was sick in bed all morning, which is kind of annoying becasue I won't be able to sleep easily tonight. :(. Ahhhs, my brother finished his school term today, which is great for him but it's a little annoying for me because I do enjoy the time I have at home when nobody else is around.
Tomorrow! Well... I'm a little bit happy about tomorrow, I'm going to get to catch up with a friend which is pretty cool. She's ahhh pretty sweet, super cool and ah... caliente. But, she's leaving in a few months. Sadface. Have to make the most of the time she's still here. Also I'm seeing some family tomorrow night, so I'll write about all those things tomorrow.
Well, I really have just about nothing to say. The hours just got away from me today and I wasted all my time doing nothing that I can even remember.
:)
Bruised - Jack's Mannequin, it's a really great song.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Boys Like Girls... Alot...
It's been a good day, learned a new song, got out of the house, got a new shirt. All smiles.
But now that the day is over and I've come to tomorrow, I don't know what it's all adding up to, I'm not quite sure where it's going, and sometimes that makes it a little hard to keep on smiling. I got the 'Love Drunk' album by Boys Like Girls today, it's got a bunch of great stuff on it, songs about love, loss and rising above everything that brings you down... Definately worth checking out if you haven't.
He who knows not, and knows not that he knows not, is a fool. Shun him.
He who knows not, and knows he knows not, is a child. Teach him.
He who knows, and knows not that he knows, is asleep. Wake him.
He who knows, and knows that he knows, is a leader. Follow him.
I'm not sure what I'm quoting because I was given that and wasn't told where it was from. Still it remains meaningful and I think it's important for everyone to take a look at something like that and work out exactly where they are and what potential they hold. A child never becomes a leader without being lead.
So moving along, the song I learned how to play today was ahh, Whoever She Is - The Maine, it's a really great song, easy to play, and I enjoy it alot. But yeah, I'm just thinking, where's the line you stop at when you're trying so hard to get something you know you want, but you know you may never get? I get stuck on things really easily, and I end up going in a totally unknown direction that I have no control over, but I can't seem to just let go.
I think it's probably a good time for me to give up thinking for the night and go to sleep...
Go - Boys Like Girls, I found it to be a pretty amazing song.
But now that the day is over and I've come to tomorrow, I don't know what it's all adding up to, I'm not quite sure where it's going, and sometimes that makes it a little hard to keep on smiling. I got the 'Love Drunk' album by Boys Like Girls today, it's got a bunch of great stuff on it, songs about love, loss and rising above everything that brings you down... Definately worth checking out if you haven't.
He who knows not, and knows not that he knows not, is a fool. Shun him.
He who knows not, and knows he knows not, is a child. Teach him.
He who knows, and knows not that he knows, is asleep. Wake him.
He who knows, and knows that he knows, is a leader. Follow him.
I'm not sure what I'm quoting because I was given that and wasn't told where it was from. Still it remains meaningful and I think it's important for everyone to take a look at something like that and work out exactly where they are and what potential they hold. A child never becomes a leader without being lead.
So moving along, the song I learned how to play today was ahh, Whoever She Is - The Maine, it's a really great song, easy to play, and I enjoy it alot. But yeah, I'm just thinking, where's the line you stop at when you're trying so hard to get something you know you want, but you know you may never get? I get stuck on things really easily, and I end up going in a totally unknown direction that I have no control over, but I can't seem to just let go.
I think it's probably a good time for me to give up thinking for the night and go to sleep...
Go - Boys Like Girls, I found it to be a pretty amazing song.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Boring Day...
So a little more about me I guess.
I live with my mother and brother, I'm not particularly close to them though. I'm 6ft tall and weigh 90kg, so I'm definately not particularly happy with the way I look, but I guess I'm don't dislike it enough to want to change it. I blame them for just about everything I'm unhappy about, and I honestly think half of it is their fault but whatever. I take things out on people closest to me which has left me with a pretty small amount of really close friends.
Today...
I woke up pretty late in the afternoon and made some plans with a friend, which happens to be particularly complicated because we've been fighting I guess you could say? I don't know why I let things get so bad with people I love, but eh... I can work it out when I see her in a couple of days, I hope. Also today, my cousin asked me to hang out with her for a day in the hills, simple but excellent... she has a good taste in outings I guess?
Ahhhh, I'm trying to learn this song You Had Me At Hello - A Day To Remember, which is my friends favourite song by them, turns out that it's actually a pretty good song.
My dad... kinda being a douche, he's going on this trip to California for 3 weeks, 1 week of work and 2 weeks of holidays, am I worth taking? No. I havn't actually spent any one on one time with him for about 2 years which is kind of sad, he was always my favourite parent. So yeah, I've been getting a little down about that lately, but things dont always go the way we want in life, I'll just learn to live with it even if it takes some time.
I know how uninteresting I may seem, but I'm sure soon enough somethings going to happen... probably a bad thing, hopefully something good though. :)
I hope everyone out there is having good times and keeping happy, and for those who aren't... there's always going to be at least one person who loves you and who cares, don't let that person go, whoever it is.
Bedtime.
A song I've been really really liking lately is...
Remembering Sunday - All Time Low
I live with my mother and brother, I'm not particularly close to them though. I'm 6ft tall and weigh 90kg, so I'm definately not particularly happy with the way I look, but I guess I'm don't dislike it enough to want to change it. I blame them for just about everything I'm unhappy about, and I honestly think half of it is their fault but whatever. I take things out on people closest to me which has left me with a pretty small amount of really close friends.
Today...
I woke up pretty late in the afternoon and made some plans with a friend, which happens to be particularly complicated because we've been fighting I guess you could say? I don't know why I let things get so bad with people I love, but eh... I can work it out when I see her in a couple of days, I hope. Also today, my cousin asked me to hang out with her for a day in the hills, simple but excellent... she has a good taste in outings I guess?
Ahhhh, I'm trying to learn this song You Had Me At Hello - A Day To Remember, which is my friends favourite song by them, turns out that it's actually a pretty good song.
My dad... kinda being a douche, he's going on this trip to California for 3 weeks, 1 week of work and 2 weeks of holidays, am I worth taking? No. I havn't actually spent any one on one time with him for about 2 years which is kind of sad, he was always my favourite parent. So yeah, I've been getting a little down about that lately, but things dont always go the way we want in life, I'll just learn to live with it even if it takes some time.
I know how uninteresting I may seem, but I'm sure soon enough somethings going to happen... probably a bad thing, hopefully something good though. :)
I hope everyone out there is having good times and keeping happy, and for those who aren't... there's always going to be at least one person who loves you and who cares, don't let that person go, whoever it is.
Bedtime.
A song I've been really really liking lately is...
Remembering Sunday - All Time Low
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Hey?
Wells, I'm pretty normal and things, I'm 16, dropped out of year 11 and looking for work. I like really simple things like; Listening to music, good conversation, being with friends, and listening to music. I don't have many things and don't have much money, but I'm totally fine with that. There are a whole lot of other things that I'm not fine with though... but that will all come out when it does I guess.
I spend my days texting friends, listening to music, learning to play music, and playing games... it really isn't much but at least it's something. I have a relatively good time just doing all that but I do have some routine things I do on some days of the week.
I started today off in a little bit of a weird way... getting some Canadian girl to strip on webcam for me, yes, I do realise that kind of makes me sound like a loser but I guess I'm a bit like that. It helped me get my mind off of things that have been happening around me lately I guess. My day after then went pretty normally though, I had a nice family gathering because there were a couple birthdays happening, so that was all pretty good.
This was really one of my better days, if they all went this way then I think it's very safe to say that I wouldn't be where I am in life. I'll complain on a bad day I guess. Bye.
Oh and just a good song for my average mood today.
Whoever She Is - The Maine
I spend my days texting friends, listening to music, learning to play music, and playing games... it really isn't much but at least it's something. I have a relatively good time just doing all that but I do have some routine things I do on some days of the week.
I started today off in a little bit of a weird way... getting some Canadian girl to strip on webcam for me, yes, I do realise that kind of makes me sound like a loser but I guess I'm a bit like that. It helped me get my mind off of things that have been happening around me lately I guess. My day after then went pretty normally though, I had a nice family gathering because there were a couple birthdays happening, so that was all pretty good.
This was really one of my better days, if they all went this way then I think it's very safe to say that I wouldn't be where I am in life. I'll complain on a bad day I guess. Bye.
Oh and just a good song for my average mood today.
Whoever She Is - The Maine
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