Fail.

Heya...

So, starting off today, I was pretty excited. I had plans to see my friend which was cool, I thought it'd be nice with everything going on between us to just be able to talk about things and sort it all out. Turns out her solution was that after she leaves to America in a couple months we should just stop talking... It was so painful to hear it actually made me a little bit sick, I had to leave as soon as she suggested that... Horrible.

So, naturally, I'm still feeling like total shit after that today. We have a whole lot of history I guess and we've been best friends for just about a year and a half now. No point complaining about all of that I guess, I just can't believe how cool with it she was... Totally cut.

I was supposed to visit my grandma tonight with my brother because she's going into hospital soon and a whole lot of complicated stuff, but my brother didn't want to go so I'm a little annoyed about that. Ahhs, I'm going to go see Eclipse tomorrow night, which should be pretty great, I havn't read the books but I did enjoy the other two movies. :)

I didn't practice any music today which I'm pretty devistated about. :( But, I did get some new clothes which is pretty cool, I got; grey trackies, plain black t-shirt, and a plain black long sleeve shirt... so I'm kinda happy about that.

But yeah, I kind of really hope not too many people out there got the feeling of being "fucked over" today. It's absolutely horrible feeling that because of a close friend. I do realise that worse things could happen, but I'm a strong believer in just being sad about these sorts of things for a little while. Shaking things off just leaves them undealt with, which I think can be a bad thing. So I hope everyone is keeping as happy as they can, and I guess a little peice of advice is just to keep your good friends as close as you can... They're really amazing when you need them.

I really wish I was better than I am and that I could make people love me a little more. Being underappreciated can feel pretty bad for anyone, I wish I was a little more perfect. It would be great to be able to make everyone that I love, really happy, but I don't think I'm enough for them. One day maybe...

Ready - The Starting Line. A little bit of a 'recovery' song for me, with a pretty good uplift at the end.