I havn't really written anything for a long time, I guess when you do nothing all day every day for such a long time there's not really much you can say. But there's still a whole lot that you can think, and I think a lot. So here's a thought or two, and a little bit of what's going on.
I guess I'm just a little depressed, It's hard to leave the house for anything, It's hard to even want to do something fun. Even going out to a movie with friends would be too much, not that I really have many friends anymore. I stopped socialising, stopped going to school, and stopped living my life. I guess all my friends sort of grew up while I stayed the same, and now everyone just so much different.
I'm only 16, but I have no idea where I want my life to go, I have no direction and in general, no clue at all about life. I think about what my parents lives would have been like when they were my age, was it easier... was it harder? I just want to know if I can get from where I am now, to a normal life later on. This thought kind of kills me a little. The harder it seems for that all to happen, for life to work out for me, the more I think about doing things like ending my life, or well, I'm not sure.
I'm struggling, taking things day by day.. Hoping for the best and holding on to the nearly nothingness that I have is all I can bring myself to do right now.
The Only Song - Sherwood
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